Earlier this week, I chose my “one word” for 2017. You may have seen this suggestion making its rounds on social media. Choose one word that becomes your guiding theme in the twelve months ahead. People’s answers have a beautiful variety: thankful, peace, trust, action, hope, brave. I have seen many as the clock keeps ticking its way closer to the new year, and I have chosen mine:
I rolled it around in my brain for a day, considering others but returning to this one. I mulled over why it was the strongest contender. What did it mean for me? How might it affect my year? It nestled into my consciousness and I decided to let it stay. The more I thought about it, the more I wanted to share it with you on this blog. As I sorted out my musings into readable paragraphs, I also tried to find a good quotation to use to introduce the idea. It was a rare occasion of Google failing me.
What I found was quote after quote affirming a person’s self-worth. I am worthy. You are worthy. On and on and on. We have a crisis of self-worth. This isn’t news. It’s been going on for decades and only getting worse. The misguided responses of rooting out all humility and lasting, God-given identity haven’t exactly helped.
All these people attempting to answer this crisis. At first it seemed like there was nothing applicable to my theme for the new year. I wasn’t looking for an affirmation of self-worth. It is exactly because of my belief in my own worth that I chose this word. Then I realized that maybe, just maybe, this new year’s theme is a piece of the puzzle of living in a manner that says you know your worth.
I chose WORTHY because I am tired of giving of myself to things that are not worthy of me. I’m tired of being tired – physically and mentally. I, like many people, have trouble saying no to or stepping away from that which isn’t worthy of a portion of my reserves of time, energy, attention, and care. In the coming year, I hope to retrain myself to an extent. Give myself only to what is worthy – be it activities, hobbies, relationships, responsibilities, worries, thoughts – and within the collection of what is worthy, spend myself to an extent that is proportionate to each one’s importance. Not everything and everyone is worthy of what I have to give, and not everything and everyone that is worthy is equally worthy.
At the close of 2017, I aim to have this a bit more sorted out than I do now. The end result, I hope, will be less of that tiredness I mentioned, yes, but also a better ability to pour myself out for what is WORTHY because I am not wasting myself on what isn’t.