Tomorrow is my birthday. 29 on the 29th. I’m embarking on the final year of my twenties, some might say the final year of my youth. I can’t say the “I’ll be 30 next year” thought has bothered me yet. Maybe that’ll hit eventually but for now, I’m enjoying life too well to lament its progress. As my sister, Cheryl, wrote in a card for me, this year has been full of surprises – the principal one being that I fell in love.
This past Sunday I had a shared party with my sister, Jessica, who was born exactly 2 years and 6 days (to the minute) before me. When I made my silent wish over 29 candles on my double layer marble cake, I had the hardest time putting the wish into words. As I whispered it to my Lord, all I could think was “my heart’s desire… my heart’s desire.”
Going into this new year of my life, I do know what I want. I do know my heart’s desire. I also know that I don’t want to attempt to work it out according to my own thoughts and methods. The Lord has so delighted me with His own hidden workings in my life, His timing and wisdom and oh so surprising blessings, that I long to remain securely held in His hands as He continues the good works He has begun. So while I could offer up specific wishes and wants, particular hopes for the coming year, at the heart of it all is that the Lord’s will for my greatest good, my fullest happiness, be done.
For I know well the plans I have in mind for you, says the Lord,
plans for your welfare, not for woe! plans to give you a future full of hope.
When you call me, when you go to pray to me, I will listen to you.
When you look for me, you will find me. Yes, when you seek me with all your heart,
you will find me with you, says the Lord, and I will change your lot…