It’s been more than a year now since I set change in motion. After the divorce became official a few weeks ago, my thoughts began often reviewing the past year. Then last night, looking for a specific photo, I paused on the first picture in this video. Day one… papers signed… gladness lighting me up.
How far I’ve come, free of doubt and full of effort. More than a year of rediscovery of my real self. The me that was silenced and gaslit (by me) for over a decade, for a relationship that did likewise. I’ve spent this year relearning how to listen to myself and my Lord.
It’s been a year of rescue, and it turns out rescue can be enormously painful. I am rebuilding trust. I work daily at rejecting fear and choosing forgiveness. Placing the years of abuse, manipulation, and resulting bitterness into God’s hands (repeatedly), I receive peace, relief, and joy in return.
He does indeed restore my soul and I will praise Him.
Carrie In Writing 